i am sorry.
i thought we are strong enuf.
but we're not.
i reali tink dat time and space will lead us to a better path.
i guess i was wrong.
the feelings just fade away.
i'm neither happy nor sad.
and not even angry.
i'm emotionless.
and better still........
i'll fuck up those people who are tryin to get near.
urgh.

i find every little thing he did faulty.
i am an ungrateful ingrate.
he is always the one who is standin by me
tolerated all my mood swings.
tantrums & vulgarities i will throw.
but he will just take it with patience.
WHERE IN THE WORLD CAN I GET ANOTHER GUY LIKE HIM?
i am such a lucky bastard and i didnt know how to appreciate it.
geee

i don wanna be de bad person here.
but i cant possibly live like dis.
i just cant stay where i am now.
i wanna move ahead.
and with him.
i feel kinda restricted.
financially i guess.
maybe.
just maybe...
i'm having too high standards out of dis relationship.
i wanna go forward.
whereas... he just wanna take things slow.
and i don like it.

i want him
but not him like him
understand?

no?
neither do i.

dis sux alot.
i'm feelin tied down.
i'm definitely trapped in confusion.

where is it leading?
is my fate sealed to be wif Acit?
Or is it just one of those life lessons.

i'm still as confuse as hell

:(

Mummy.... help me

♥even the slightest gesture meant so much♥ & i believe; u are gonna be the best thing dat happened♥