helllooo!!!

its 9.30 am on a Saturday morning!
and de lamest thing of all....
i'm working! bah!!!

with 2 hours of sleep only...
my brain is going @*^$*@^*%(#^

i was "FORCED" to follow to ECP last night.
immediately after i knock off from work
tk bagi chance aku balek freshen up pon
i don wanna go coz i was shagged and i dont see de need to come.
furthermore i've sponsored 1 whole big box of lobsters sak.

AJUT MAKELS book a pit and Sadiq became the pit planner.
and was reali reali pissed+bored+tired+verybored+extremelytired


there's a difference between asking for help and taking advantage of people kindness.
i was reali pissed @ AJUT.
true la its his belated bdae pit. and he booked the pit.
but den,
tukang organise Sadiq.
tukang beli barang2 Sadiq.
tukang drive Sadiq.
tukang masak Sadiq.
tukang prepare brg2 bbq pon Sadiq.

The last straw... da pat pit... tukang bakar pon Sadiq.
and i was chucked at one side.

fucking binget lor.
he wants me to help.
oh pls. i didnt even lift a finger to help.
ZILCH! bole buat muka ronyok lagi.
haha.

being in ultra-petty mode.
i refused to eat anything.
or drink anything.
sampai la ade rock concert dlm perot at ard 11+pm.

buroks giles babis punyes perangais.

lol.

but wat reali i wanna story2 about today is Sadiq's romantic side.
seriously hopelessly romantic sak.

few days back, he gave me a wrist rest (when using the mouse)
and wrote a short note on dat thing

"this is the only support dat i can give now. but there's more to come from me"

geddit? geddit?

den yesterday, he burnt a CD for me.
siap dgn gmbr kita and titled "for my dear Jaja" printed on the CD (yek eleh pakai lightscribe)
and the songs smua kirekan kalau nak on setting kene "turn ur lights down low"
hahaha

so de thing is...
his frens wanna play the CD at the pit yesterday.
and dis BF of mine turned beetred.
wakakakakak
malu la konon.

like i said earlier... setting turn ur lights down low kan...
so at 2+am when we are heading back Father Bear requested to play the CD.
and at the back sumpah da mcm multi species fishes dlm tin yg da expire.
ikan bilis 3 ekor and ikan jaws 4 ekor anak ikan sekor.
ok ok digress lagi (-________-)zzzzzz

so... i was sitting with my back towards him
when the CD started playing
he pulled me into his arms.
held me tight and whispered "listen carefully"
wakakaka at dat very moment... aku cair meleleh eh.
ahahaha and sway left to right. held my hand. nuzzle at my shoulder.
goodness. and when de song "All My Life" was played.
the grip he was giving me tightened.
kirekan mcm da kene squeeze sak aku.
hahaha Sadiq, Sadiq...

kau ni da mcm closet romantist ah.

i'm sure Mother Bear and Father Bear wont believe dis.
wakakakak
coz thruout they onli see we kutok/diss/shout/scream/punch/pinch/kick each other.

tol tak? tol tak?

♥even the slightest gesture meant so much♥ & i believe; u are gonna be the best thing dat happened♥